For a long time I believed that there was something lacking in me because so many would be unhappy because I didn't live up to their expectations. So what do they do? They blame me, of course, for all their miserableness. I did not know I held that much power. But, living and learning has brought me to the realization that it's all a bunch of nonsense. I am not guilty of anything, and certainly not obligated to anyone's judgement of me. I have been amazed on how one-sided or one minded people can be without even deciding what their own mind dictates. Certainly, they must have some introspection as well. But don't bet on it.
Over time, I have spoken to a lot of spiritual people. I've gained a lot of insight into myself. What I have learned is that I am a good soul and pretty much have kept my karma in good standing. I know some others haven't, but that is not a joy to me, just a pity. You know, if I could open up the doors to people who have themselves locked into a cell (real or imaginary) I would. However, as many have told me, you cannot save others, only yourself. This is true and, unfortunately, you really can't transmit knowledge of what you've learned to another. They have to find out things by themself.
I found out that I could never do a good thing according to people who only want to see the bad in me. But, there is not that much bad, so it becomes a puzzle, and one to be solved like so many others that I attempt to understand. I find myself asking myself if my take on things is really delusion or am I really on the right road of truth and clarity? I think it's clarity because, after all, if you approach yourself honestly, your whole world opens up. The people who can't do this fool themselves and, think they are o.k. with their own illusions. They aren't really. They just want you to think they are.
Anyway, I will end this now and return when I have more tidbits for you to consider. Until then, be happy. You have a right to this you know.
Saturday, February 11, 2012
Thursday, February 9, 2012
The Scientific versus the Supernatural
It occured to me that I have written some pretty fantastic things on my blogs. Things that, if I hadn't experienced first hand, would not normally believe. Thus, I think some clarification is in order. I think that reality can be broken down to the seen and unseen, which fluctulation between the two. Certainly there are people out there who believe in God. Yet, scientifically, God is an unproven existence. Science is really the study of verifiable information of the visible world. Supernatural is the study of the invisible world and verification is always very difficult. Because one believes in ghosts though, in my mind, is no less valid that believing there's a doorknob on the front door or pepperoni on the pizza.
Aside from going through some wild trials, I think your understanding of what "all" is becomes all expansive. I do want to make an important distinction in what reality is to different people. Certainly I could sit here and tell you of certain events that I've been through - but I do this from only my personal aspect and without the help of anyone else influencing me. Then there are those that contour reality to fit into their beliefs. And some of them are influenced by others. So, at best, their reality is stilted.
It has always been my goal to seek truth, no matter what form it may appear to me. And one must be courageous to accept all that you find. Being accurate and honest is not always easy. On the flip side, there are those that are in utter fear of the truth and will do anything, or say anything, to escape any scutiny. That is all fine and o.k. with me as long as I'm not dragged into the game. But, as I've said before, my goal now is to be non-judgemental. There is a reason for everything and all things get balanced out in the end.
Aside from going through some wild trials, I think your understanding of what "all" is becomes all expansive. I do want to make an important distinction in what reality is to different people. Certainly I could sit here and tell you of certain events that I've been through - but I do this from only my personal aspect and without the help of anyone else influencing me. Then there are those that contour reality to fit into their beliefs. And some of them are influenced by others. So, at best, their reality is stilted.
It has always been my goal to seek truth, no matter what form it may appear to me. And one must be courageous to accept all that you find. Being accurate and honest is not always easy. On the flip side, there are those that are in utter fear of the truth and will do anything, or say anything, to escape any scutiny. That is all fine and o.k. with me as long as I'm not dragged into the game. But, as I've said before, my goal now is to be non-judgemental. There is a reason for everything and all things get balanced out in the end.
Sunday, February 5, 2012
Prayers for the Misbegotten...
I had another post but deleted it because it sounded too much like the previous one. And, if there is something I do NOT want to do is go over the same ground twice. After all, do you want to read what you've read before? Then again, I am older and I do have a forgetful brain now and then so forgive me if I lapse.
There are a few things I should relate in this one though. I have discovered, through trial and error, that I am very susceptible when it comes to negative energy surrounding me. That is, it is like a poison. I never realized that, through many years in my life, my depressions were really reinforced by the negative vibrations people were giving off in my direction. Now that I've discovered that, I view my past, present, and future with more clarity. It's hard to explain. But you get wiser to what's going on and, that doesn't mean it's good, but you can avoid the bad if you know what I mean.
I am thrown by life sometimes. I see too much of what I don't value succeeding somehow. Could I be wrong? I mean, I have never been one to be a user, in other words, take all I can get from someone and then discard them like yesterday's newpaper. I see so much manipulation out there and people who do this. Did I miss something in my upbringing? Is there something wrong with my morality? Should I be out there taking advantage instead of valuing people, wishing them the best, and everybody being happy? I suppose it boils down to what some people want and what they are willing to do to get it and everyone else be damned. I have never seen that as an admirable trait but, then again, that is just me.
I was involved, for a period of time, in a game called "you hurt me, I hurt you" and round and round ad infinitum. I found out that no matter how justified and right you are, your actions are open to projecting to people just how horrible you are. It's manipulation of course, but sometimes we inadvertantly allow us to fall victim to this. It's an abuse of vision, of course, but to allow it to go on unquestioned is to deny just how inappropriate it is. Thus, I think the wiset thing to do, for me, is not to care about what others think. If they are misled to think what others want them to think, then far be it from me to burst the illusion. But, there is something more at work which, I will probably discuss at some later date.
The point for me, which is very crucial at this point, is to be non-judgemental and try to understand the world and why people do things the way they do. I am interested in psychology and have read many things that clarify human mysteries. I do this to better myself and to understand. But, I want to reach a level whereby all of this craziness in the world is outsie of myself. To reach a spiritual and mental place whereby all this doesn't matter and I am free to pursue a higher mind. Mind you, it is not easy. Life will give you many trials but the point is to move forward at any cost. I am over being used, and I love it. Thus, the place I arrived at is getting better and better, especially since my mind has progressed way beyond where I used to be. Anyway, I will be back and probably write more things that you'll either understand or be mystified by. A friend of mine once said some words of wisdom to me, it was "when you change, everything changes". How true. I keep changing for the better.
There are a few things I should relate in this one though. I have discovered, through trial and error, that I am very susceptible when it comes to negative energy surrounding me. That is, it is like a poison. I never realized that, through many years in my life, my depressions were really reinforced by the negative vibrations people were giving off in my direction. Now that I've discovered that, I view my past, present, and future with more clarity. It's hard to explain. But you get wiser to what's going on and, that doesn't mean it's good, but you can avoid the bad if you know what I mean.
I am thrown by life sometimes. I see too much of what I don't value succeeding somehow. Could I be wrong? I mean, I have never been one to be a user, in other words, take all I can get from someone and then discard them like yesterday's newpaper. I see so much manipulation out there and people who do this. Did I miss something in my upbringing? Is there something wrong with my morality? Should I be out there taking advantage instead of valuing people, wishing them the best, and everybody being happy? I suppose it boils down to what some people want and what they are willing to do to get it and everyone else be damned. I have never seen that as an admirable trait but, then again, that is just me.
I was involved, for a period of time, in a game called "you hurt me, I hurt you" and round and round ad infinitum. I found out that no matter how justified and right you are, your actions are open to projecting to people just how horrible you are. It's manipulation of course, but sometimes we inadvertantly allow us to fall victim to this. It's an abuse of vision, of course, but to allow it to go on unquestioned is to deny just how inappropriate it is. Thus, I think the wiset thing to do, for me, is not to care about what others think. If they are misled to think what others want them to think, then far be it from me to burst the illusion. But, there is something more at work which, I will probably discuss at some later date.
The point for me, which is very crucial at this point, is to be non-judgemental and try to understand the world and why people do things the way they do. I am interested in psychology and have read many things that clarify human mysteries. I do this to better myself and to understand. But, I want to reach a level whereby all of this craziness in the world is outsie of myself. To reach a spiritual and mental place whereby all this doesn't matter and I am free to pursue a higher mind. Mind you, it is not easy. Life will give you many trials but the point is to move forward at any cost. I am over being used, and I love it. Thus, the place I arrived at is getting better and better, especially since my mind has progressed way beyond where I used to be. Anyway, I will be back and probably write more things that you'll either understand or be mystified by. A friend of mine once said some words of wisdom to me, it was "when you change, everything changes". How true. I keep changing for the better.
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